Atmosphere Yesterday
(Source: bagdhadbomber, via cutting---corners)
“I feel like sometimes I’m in my own little world and you’re always next to me and I don’t know how you do it but you understand me.”
(via staygreat)
That message made me sigh in relief. Thanks. I’m trying. And I’ve been told that before, weirdly enough, by my mother. I’ll get it together again, I just need to keep reminding myself that I’m okay. I guess change can be a little overwhelming, even if it’s good, and I still need some time to adapt.
This month was a blur. I’m stressing out over grades, I really need to do better but my motivation has dwindled down to nearly nothing. I’m so sleepy all the time and my anemia is really taking a hold of me. I gotta eat better, man! Constantly being tired and randomly getting dizzy sucks, dude. I’m starting to really miss my parents. I wish I was still a spoiled little kid. I never had to worry about anything but school. Now, I gotta take the get bus everywhere, rush to get my permit and hope to get a car soon, I don’t get home till five cause of the bus, I gotta keep up with my laundry cause shit’s getting outta hand, make dinner, pack lunch for the next day, find time to shower and do homework and still try to look decent and do sweet things for my boyfriend. I can’t imagine having to pay rent or work, so at least I don’t have to do any of that. Ahhh. My mind is all over the place. I just need Alexis here to lie in bed with me and kiss my dimple like he always does and tell me that everything will be okay. But that’s not possible at the moment, because he’s working, so I’ll just keep doing laundry and working on homework and avoiding extended use of my phone. I just need the weekend already, man.
- too distracted to do homework
- so much of it tho
- I need to clean my room too
- and do laundry
- boyfriend is stressed over mid terms
- I just want him to smile, man
- h8 school don’t want to go
- can I just sleep
