• too distracted to do homework
• so much of it tho
• I need to clean my room too
• and do laundry
• boyfriend is stressed over mid terms
• I just want him to smile, man
• h8 school don’t want to go
• can I just sleep

today I was talking to my friend forrest about guys and stuff in english class and we were actually having a nice, real, heartfelt conversation. it was pleasant. but he kind of made me realize that I’m very naive. still. I thought I moved passed that, but apparently not. I’m still very unaware of all the tricks guys have up their sleeves, and all the games they’ll play to get what they want. that sucked. realizing all that, I guess. it was actually really shitty. you know, you start to think that maybe someone actually likes you but half the time, it’s not really you that they like. it was kinda sad hearing him respond to my counterpoints. I’d say, “well, what if they say something really sweet? I mean that has to count for something.” and I knew he was being blunt and completely honest when he said, “anyone can do that. it’s so easy to just text someone something. don’t you realize that? they don’t have to care to say that they do. in fact, they usually don’t care at all.”

it’s nice having guy friends who give it to you straight. these kids are like brothers, I swear. I always get so frustrated with them and “hate” them, but really, I just love them and they’re great friends. yeah. uh, that’s it.